I’m not sure what the hell is going on any more. I’m not delusional so I don’t think I’m a woman or female. So I’m just a bloke in a dress and I’m not sure if that’s a good thing or a bad thing.
It’s kinda great to not be living with the cognitive dissonance that transwomen are actually women when clearly we aren’t unless you redefine women to not mean women anymore. And it’s kinda cool to be gender non-conformimg and give a big two fingers to the gender stereotypes about what men are allowed/meant to be.
But sometimes I look in the mirror and wonder what on earth I’m doing. I’m really not trying to parody women, or to ‘get off’ on looking like a woman. I just feel more comfortable like this even if I do look ridiculous.
I don’t know what I am anymore. What’s the point?